Monday, June 20, 2011

never look back

If there is one cardinal rule of living a peaceful life it is the ability to look ahead unless there is a reason something from the past needs to be healed. I've been told by more than one person that I f**ckin' analyze them when in reality I'm just verbalizing my thoughts, trying to understand the situation. If someone has an issue that they're not willing to go through the pain to get ahead of, then that's their problem not mine. I've spent way too much of my life in sorrow over things that went wrong and I'm not getting any younger. It's time to make a change.

BG and I were just talking about the powers that be and how they're all working together to keep world peace from happening. It's the devil, pure and simple. Not Obama. Not that little girl's mom who killed her and continues to lie about it. Not even Sarah Palin, but I'd sure love to hang that one on her list of accomplishments! All of this striving and warring and killing over whose god is the right one is just want the little red guy wants. And he's winning, big time. Until we learn to make changes in the "village" one life at a time without big money at stake, we are doomed to implode and turn into some barren universe where we are FORCED to depend on each other for survival. Yeah, I know. Sounds like one of my roommates' Asian cartoons. I read today about an organization supported by the WHO and others that is in bed with the pharm industry on a world wide basis. That's some scary crap, people. Do I need to remind ya'll how much drugs cost and how hard we work to pay for that insurance? We got to chatting about medical marijuana and how many states have legalized it. She was looking at me like I was an idiot as I explained my grand scheme of turning the DEA into ag agents to help pot growers produce more for government taxation. That would eliminate an entire sector of the prison population that sure, broke a law. But they didn't kill anybody or do harm to anyone was an "innocent" victim. Reefer madness. Rock on America.

Yesterday was a good chance to unwind and watch movies and I was lucky enough to catch one of my favorites, "Sunshine Cleaning". Every time I watch it I learn a little more about life and death and how we all handle it differently. People who work in hospitals tend to be ahead of most people in that game, witnessing death at random times under sometimes ridiculous circumstances. We often laugh, just to keep from crying. But we cry a lot too. There is something very intimate about being with a person at the moment of death. Because of those experiences, I am not afraid. I've seen and felt too many angels in hospital rooms to not believe in them.

So, I'm off to see the wizard. Who wants to go?



  1. We bleed the same, we all have fears,
    we all love and hate, we all shed tears.

    Once we figure THAT out, things might improve. . .

  2. You are right on, sweetie pie. I couldn't have put it better. I love you.