boo to you

It's another beautiful day and praise be.  I visited briefly with my brother and cousins at the cabin this morning.  Mo will be my designer!  Next up is a walk through of this place to figure out what I have to work with and what I sell.  All this should roll out after I have surgery.  We found a snake skin hanging over one of the windows which always creeps me out.   It was not unusual to find live ones in a drawer, back in the day.  Hopefully the new foundation will help with that.  I remember there was a skunk's nest right under daddy's closet that stunk that thing up to high heaven.  After they were gone, I believe.  We had a big sale and split the profits which wasn't much.  That was the extent of our estate.  To be able to go there again and start all over with my brand is exciting.  I see many more memories being made down there.  

I will have to find a home for Ellie I imagine because she would smooth get run over down there.  And yes, I will screen all potential fosters.  She is a four year old chocolate lab mix, spayed and chipped.  Loves to run and chase cars so she needs wide open spaces.  Maybe a shock collar.  Sweet as pie but very needy.  She is just beginning to grow into maturity but is not trained to fetch or anything.  Mostly she just barks at squirrels!

Reaves and Lauren are on the way and I actually had to go to the 'gentral to get candy.  Their chip reader was down so it was cash only.  That messed with my plans but it will all work out.  Thank goodness I had it on me because I sure wasn't going to town.  It was quiet as a tomb in there.  

I've really enjoyed this full moon and tonight should be glorious.  Not on Halloween since 1944 I believe?  We only got rolled once out here by the Autry family and never had trick or treaters.  There was a bulletin from the county yesterday that a trustee had disappeared from work at the golf course which happens to be in my back yard.  Oh, yeah.  I was locked up tight with dogs on patrol.  

There is so much loss and grief.  Everybody you know is going through the process of letting go , sometimes in fits and starts.  Other times suddenly.  I have always thought that losing a loved one abruptly like in an accident would be the worst.  No chance to say goodbye.  I learned with my parents to grieve along the way to their end.

Please vote for the candidate of your choice unless it's Kanye.  Then?  I will know you are not my friend.  Peace and love kids ^j^

learning to be still

This morning was bright and sunny and I enjoyed my time just watching nature.  I saw the turtle parents on their usual log and a squirrel run by close up with his mouth stuffed.  There was a duck or two and lots of birds.  And the sound of an autumn breeze on those wind chimes is a real soul filler.  

I have very few tales to tell today.  Still tired a bit and trying to make it through next week to find out what's up with this little bag thingy.  It's beginning to bother me even though I've pretty much figured out the drill on supply management and disinfectant wipes.  When I first got it I was anticipating having to empty it a lot but as time has gone by I can figure what's comfortable to tote around and what's not.  And sometimes I can smell it when nobody else does.  At least I'm alive to tell it.  Dr. Drew Bedford Turner of Baptist Surgical group:  Thank you for saving my life.  I'm trusting you on this one too.

I know my critical thinking skills are still good because I can map my way around town and know the easiest route and traffic times.  I HAD to get dog food so I went to the shady gentral.  Y'al should have seen this old white lady dragging a bag of Alpo and hugging bottles of Propel.  Plus some Cheetos.

As a wannabe writer, one of my heroines is Janet Evanovich.  The Plum series kept me laughing for a lot of years and I hear there's a new one!  Hint. Hint. Santa Claus.  I expect to be recovering at Christmas if all goes well.  Who knows with the china virus.  *tongue in cheek*  I am searching for peace in a time of extreme political turmoil like most of you.  Judging on the past four years we have experienced, two wrongs don't make a right.  I'm reading FEAR by Bob Woodward and reliving the whole "how this came to be" scenario.  Fascinating.  Trump inherited a solid eight years of great leadership by Obama.  Yeah, he made some mistakes but for the most part he tried to repair what happened with Dubya and Cheney.  WMD and whatnot.  Meanwhile we got ISIS stirred up wanting to be sacrificial lambs for glory.  And OUR US troops came back with nightmares that will never go away.  Same for all active duty situations.  You can't un-see what you saw.  

I am such a Pollyanna that I actual believe in healing of the soul.  It's a different path for each of us but it happens according to the plan.  And that, my friends, is the key to peace.  It is what it is ^j^

on pecan lane live!

Hooo..boy.  I don't even have a paying job and this one has been a killer.  I have zero energy, it's cold and wet and my kitty went away.  As I age I am acutely aware of the fatigue.  Like, when I was working there was no time to think about it and no choice but to go out there and pay the bills.  Keep the boat floating, so to speak.  I spent some time at the church today with my buddies all masked up and sanitized.  It all just kind of flows and these are pretty desperate times for a lot of folks.  One thing we noticed is an uptick in first time requests for food.  

So I got to witness a real live SWAT team training both going to and coming home from Kroger.  I'm talking long guns and all.  I mean, you don't see that everyday.  Just like the dude in a shiny red devil mask up at the shady 'gentral.  On a bike.  With a backpack and a radio and another bike.  My photographer self was about to take a picture when I noticed he had HATE in tats across his knuckles.  Hmm...and I said to self, get ye into the trusty old Camry and haul ass.  

I have a "joyful" day ahead tomorrow with one of my favorite peeps out at paradise central.  I pinch hit for her regular caregiver when he has important things going on.  My friends are burying their mother tomorrow and I will be there in spirit.  They have worked with the patience of Job through all this.  

I chose wisely at Kroger.  Fresh green things and some shrimp on sale.  And always some chicken tenderloins.  Screw a bunch of cutting up bird!  I even bought some fresh lemons to cook with.  It may not be today, but......I love to cook and always have.  My mother taught me and Lauren and we have both retained her sense of adventure when creating recipes.  I do very little fast food now and if so it's a splurge. That brisket at Arby's is to die for.  Which reminds me of what I would give for the Asian brisket salad again at The Bus Stop. 

So, I know I'm rambling but this is my spot to do so.  Evidently a lot of people like to visit here just to see what a day brings for a hippie redneck country girl.  That would be me and all the other chicks who sang along in bars and held hands and cried.  Many of us remain fast friends to this very day.

Put one foot in front of the other and ask God what the next step should be.  With his guidance, you can't go wrong.  Listen to that gut feeling!  If there is an obstacle, there is always a Plan B or C.  I learned that from the Botwin-Newman family.

~namaste

what day is it anyway?

Like most everybody else I am in a perpetual fog trying to get some sense of day and time.  I believe we've all had "the china virus" and some are recovering well because they got ultra good treatment.  Even in little bitty Dyersburg they have a floor and an ICU to handle that.  Meanwhile, Trump got flown to Walter Reed in a dramatic move that involved the latest in treatments because what would we do without him?  From what I hear, recovery plasma and that remdesivir or whatever can do wonders.  Maybe take a little of that cloroqine stuff.  Snort some bleach.

Today has been a plethora of chores because it's raining like a mofo and I ain't going nowhere.  This week's garbage may have to wait to get hauled out from the swing to the drive.  I did tackle the dishes and most are either clean or soaking.  When you can't find your kitchen counters, it's time to bolt into action.  Plus with Lily gone there are mice turds.  OMG.  I hate a freakin' mouse though I did, on occasion, feel sorry for their little souls when the witch cat played one to death and then ate the guts.  Cat life.

Y'all make a blanket fort and ride this out with whomever you love.  I'm ready to just get over the hump and onto what is going to be.  Peace and love ^j^

down to the wire

Downtown Dyersburg was bustling with pre-election activity today.  I was headed into the DCDP headquarters for an event when I passed this YUGE presidential looking limo, complete with flags, parked on the side of road in South Dyersburg.  I had heard from my brother that the Republicans were sending a bus down to South Mill for a campaign event so I figured they were the "escort" car.  I went on down to hear the delightful and intelligent Marquita Bradshaw tell us who she is and what she stands for as a candidate for US Senate.  The only black woman running I believe.  She is from Memphis and is wrapping up a complete 95 county tour of the state.  She had a crew complete with videographer ( her son ) and assorted caravan.  They arrived promptly at 11 and met with a socially distanced and masked up crowd of supporters.  I saw lots of old friends and made a new one.  

On my way out I saw a lot of well heeled Trumpsters hoofing it between their headquarters and the bus, just a two block walk.  I wonder where all these folks parked????  There definitely ain't much space on the square.  And, there weren't many masks from what I could see.  Whatever.  I am cautiously optimistic that there is a light at the end of this tunnel of division and hatred.  I don't think that's too much to ask.  

Y'all be well and happy. Above all, keep the faith ^j^  

downsizing

I spent a good amount of phone time today with my abundance coach Lorna.  We talked about every little thing and with no interruption from Jasper which was amazing.  He did tell me he loves and misses me.  I think he's on probation!  There is a whole 'nother back story there that I won't go into.  She is the one who first urged me to manifest my destiny.  I think I'm there girl.

Me and Claudia talked forever yesterday mostly about our shared memories.  It's cool that we can do that now in our golden years.  We all have our challenges but there's nothing like a memory of baby sitting your little brother on a snowy day back in 1971 playing Voice of the Mummy.  

I will  have the opportunity to meet a real live Senate candidate tomorrow and you bet your ass I'll be there for Marquita and the party.  This woman did amazing things in the primary like beating a well funded campaign by targeting non-voters.    Welcome to Dyersburg Marquita Bradshaw!  Your audience will most likely be those who have already voted for you.

I'm excited and nervous.  The number one priority for me now is to have surgery and get rid of this bag.  All the rest will fall into place.  Under God's plan, of course.  I feel much more spiritual and in touch with reality than I have in over a year.  And as well all know, it's been a rough one.  

Y'all keep the faith with me ^j^

with age comes wisdom

I worshiped online this morning with my virtual FUMC family.  They are a faithful lot for certain.  It's stewardship season so there was a lot of talk about John Wesley and his lessons on money and vocation.  Mary Beth mentioned about how working hard at your vocation can literally rob you of time with family and things that matter, particularly in a toxic work environment.  Been there, done that for many years.  She also spoke about using the wisdom that you gained during those years to coach others on their journey to a better life.  If work drains you and doesn't make you happy, it's time to go.

That is why I left corporate healthcare.  My strong point was visiting with patients and being a constant fixture at that hospital.  I was a well known local and my picture still hangs there on the hallway by the lab, for what it's worth.  41 years to be exact.  I do not regret a minute from the time I decided enough was enough.  I cried and there was no retirement dinner or ink pen.  When I was there, I did the best I could to help sick people which was probably my calling.  I could have made a ton more money working for Siemens or one of those other high tech companies that sell equipment and do training.  I chose, instead, to hold people's hands and tell them it's all gonna' be alright.

I continue to be an advocate for those I hold near and dear.  I don't make a lot of money for it but it's the next right thing to do in my retirement years, especially during a pandemic. I choose my clients wisely and do my best for them.  I wear a mask when I go out.  Screw all you idiots who refuse to do so because of your "rights".  

So, John Wesley was a Methodist.  And so am I.  Most of all I am a believer in a loving and forgiving God who wants us to be at peace.  Our hearts were warmed around that small group and thus began the Wesleyan tradition.  Reason. Tradition, Experience and The Word.    

^j^

brrrrrrrr

I had the ac on yesterday.  Today it is COLD!  Typical Tennessee weather.  I went out early to run a couple of errands and ended up down at outdoor festival down at The Mill Workspace.  Lots of cool stuff down there kids.  Of course i'm broke as a joke so I didn't buy anything, just oohed and ahhed and took pictures for my buddy Chris, the mover and shaker of Downtown Dyersburg.  He was watching from afar when I heard my name called and we chatted right there at the sign that says no campaigning beyond this point.  And we laughed about Kanye.  

Bubba sent me a recipe for chicken and rice so I was on a mission to get the ingredients for that.  I got a call from Yaya asking me if I was at Kroger and she asked "are you at Kroger,,,how did you know?  said I.  "We are at the fueling up for the trip and saw your car."  Now that's a tribe.  

Y'all hang in there and find joy where you can!  Love ya...mean it ^j^

eat some salt

My PCP told me that she rarely advises that but my sodium was low so there ya' go.  I also got hooked up with some mega Vitamin D and a consult with Dr. Peter Carter to get some help on the bone density thing. More later on that.

So, that explains why I fried up all the bacon I had left and will store it for a salad or something.  I'm cleaning house and taking names in preparation for the move.  Right after I woke up this morning there was a monsoon thunderstorm type of deal up at Fowlkes.  It didn't show on radar but the thunder was LOUD.  All the while the sun was shining on Pecan Lane.  Strange.

I visited the 'gentral and got what I needed.  Soon I will go to Kroger and use the rest of my gift card on things I love to eat.  Like broccoli and whatnot.  Maybe some asparagus if it's on sale.  Definitely some bird.  I have four masks so it's all good.

I totally missed the debate but I heard than Trump toned it down a bit which is a good thing.  That was his last chance to play nice.  God bless America and all that.  Please don't start a war.  Please shut the eff up and let the people speak with their vote.  If you lose, you lose.  Be a gentleman for once and take it gracefully.

I was looking forward to a craft festival tomorrow on Mill Street but my friend urged me not to go up in a crowd and I love that.  If I wear a mask and everybody is touching everything without one, I am at risk.  Perhaps after Covid.  I may have to snag some loaded ribbon fries from Fatty's though.  Just saying.

Y'all be blessed and pay it forward ^j^

out of the loop

I have always been totally hooked up with medical advice and diagnostic results at my fingertips.  One month into Medicare I find myself on the hamster wheel of trying to keep a pulse on my health with sporadic communication.  I know what the numbers mean.  Please don't confuse me by telling me I need this or that without explaining why.  I have an appointment tomorrow to get all those answers, Lord willing.  

The weather is beautiful!  Trees are showing out with autumn colors and nice sun to highlight the majesty.  I'm wearing shorts in October and there ain't nothing better.  I spent an hour online watching a fundraiser for Down's Syndrome in Charlotte.  My hero Kristin Hampton was one of many who were rappelling down an 18 story building to raise money for their cause.  She tried to chicken out halfway through after she raised 3000 bucks but then she talked to her friend Trista and she told her to be brave.  I would have been scared to death and she was too.  The others were scooting and moonwalking and otherwise having a good time for a good cause.   Happily, she made it down safely and thanked everybody and their mama'n'them for helping her raise 7K for Gigi's House.  Their philosophy is about achievement in spite of disability.  I love that!

Prayers up for all of us.  Everybody has something and some of us more than one thing.  That's when faith comes into play.  Keep it and hold it close ^j^

reality check

I just watched NYPD police officials briefing the people on emergency preparedness for the coming election, beginning with additional staff on October 24th until whenever the dust settles.  I have already heard many tales about Trump poll watchers and intimidation and I suspect it will get worse the closer we get to election day.  This is truly scary on so many levels.  The fact that one party is orchestrating all of this is, while not surprising, a warning to all of us that it ain't over 'til it's over.  And then there's the transition of power if that happens to be the case.  That is what scares me the most.  A pissed off sore loser wanting to raise hell on the way out.  

The COVID is everywhere.  I personally know dozens who have been affected and several of them are fighting for their lives.  The thought of all these people dying without family present is quite sad, and I empathize with the caregivers who are doing their best to make it easier on families.  

I just got off the phone with an old friend who never ceases to make me laugh and that was today's therapy..We giggled and cussed and generally said eff it....it will be what it will be.  It's a beautiful autumn day and the leaves are approaching peak.  There's one tree that I can see from my kitchen window down the road that delights me every single year.  

Y'all be merry and bright.  I did some early Christmas shopping all from local vendors.  That's my motto this year:  Support small business ^j^

the rainbow bridge

I have watched many of my furbabies cross it and it still hurts every dang time.  Sally passed over peacefully this morning laying on her daddy's deck while he was gone on an errand.  He's had a hard week or two and this, while expected, is bound to be a gut punch on a super rainy and gloomy Sunday.  

It's everywhere....the sadness and loss.  I have a very long prayer list at the moment to say the least.  Yesterday with my girls was a gift from God.  We had soooooo much fun.  Reaves loved the cabin and we played hide and seek with each of us getting a turn and timing it just right for the perfect BOOOO!  She ran up and down those floors and climbed the steps as far as she could. I tried to get a picture of her and Lauren sitting there like LP did with Bubba 33 years ago on Thanksgiving.  She wouldn't have it!  Too many things to explore at "gaga new house."  

I hope that you and yours feel the peace of the spirit during these dark times.  I heard that my friend who had a double transplant is doing well so there's that bit of good news.  That man is one of my heroes.  

Y'all be safe and lift each other up.  Claim your tribe and be loyal.  And keep the faith ^j^

home going

Bubba and I met at the cabin for a full on preview of the floors and whatnot.  O.M.G.  It is beyond beautiful and I felt the spirits of my parents watching over us as we ooohed and aaahhed. It has been a labor of love for a lot of folks to get it just right.  I doubt we will have Thanksgiving there because there's no table but I suppose we could order Cracker Barrel and stand around the kitchen with paper plates!  

The toilet works and the water and the heat and air.  Gas logs are in place and ready to fire up.  The porch is yet to be finished out but that's a minor detail.  There is so MUCH light down there.  Nothing like back in the day when Daddy watched it rain for days on end next to the steps.  I'm a geek for farm equipment so I had to get a pic of the new looking combine ready for bean season.  That's a whole 'nother story.

I washed my hair last night with baking soda and frankincense oil to strip off all the cheap shampoo.  It is wiry but clean as a whistle. Next step is a cut and some deep conditioning. It's time to check the mail and walk the yard.  Peace be with you and yours ^j^ 

chilling

When Reaves was here the other day she taught me how to chill.  Like totally get back to the earth.  We lay in the grass together and shut our eyes, listening to nature and enjoying the sun.  That is one of those moments that you never forget.  And it makes all the terrible three tantrums worth it.  

Fall blew in today complete with colored leaves and cooler temps.  Like my mother, I adore it.  She and I never did much like the heat.  Her favorite time of the year was always football season complete with homecoming mums and all.  Those were the days, donthca' know?  College Hill is still a sight to behold in autumn.  

I'm stretching my vocal chords with my YouTube list and singing my little heart out.  I will probably have to turn on the heat in a bit but meanwhile...I'm happy as a clam.  You do what you have to do to live a life of honor and promise.  Stand by those and share.  You  might be the one to make a difference in this cruel world.  Peace ^j^

where was i?

Oh yeah.  When last we chatted, I was still on a high from a girls' visit.  I've been busy busy since then.  Bubba got to go home finally and is recovering well.  I killed three birds with one stone today and early voted on my way to get a mammogram and bone density.  Some old dude with a Trump mask on was coming in as I was leaving and me and the lady at the table both told him "you can't do that."  She made him turn it around where the message wasn't visible.   After that I went by the county Democratic headquarters to visit a minute and then went scouting for our billboards south of my house on 51.  I was pulled off on the side of the road with emergency blinkers on to get a picture of one of them and a kind lady and her daughter stopped to ask if I needed help as I was hiking back to my car.  I love it when that happens.  

Other than that, it's all rainbows and unicorns.  Y'all be safe and happy.  Remember who you are and be nice to people.  If they're mean to you, kill'em with kindness.  Over and out ^j^

sunday fun

I got three hours of pure Reaves and Lauren.  We ate yogurt ( with M&Ms)  and found treasures in the garden while digging with the tiny shovel.  That was pine cones that she buried and discovered once again.  Then our neighbor came by and gave her the trip of a lifetime on his ATV.  We went fast and slow and saw deer, a bunny and some ducks.  I loved it as much as she did.  To say that she enoyed the ride it is an understatement.  Pure.Joy.  She then jumped on my bed, made another bed on a yoga mat and went into meltdown when it was time to leave.  Gawd...I love those girls.  

Our friend Johnny fed Sally today so I got a break to chill with them after I did a Kroger run and visited Bubba.  He will be home tomorrow and not soon enough.  He's pretty miserable up in there and I know the feeling.  Home will feel good. 

That was my day.  How was yours?  

snake zero...poopie 1

I was walking my friend to the car yesterday and he spotted a little bitty snake all undercover on a root.  Now we are both scared of 'em so I grabbed the shovel and commenced to trying to chop his head off.  Sucker still kept moving.  I think Oscar finished him off.  Lord, I so hate a snake.  Even baby ones.  Stay away!

I did my morning run and came home to vegetate in my house on this gloomy Delta day.  Winds are up but so far not much rain..  We dodged a bullet on that one because beans are almost ready.  The wheat is planted as far as I know, after two passes on the cornfields.  It's time to put on warm clothes and watch it snow.  I remember vividly one time being on the road to see The Phantom in St. Louis with my KY cousin.  It started snowing pretty heavy around Cape and I was scared to death so we pulled off and got a hotel room for the night.  And then, I saw Phantom at the Grand in St Louis.  I have always been amazed by live theater especially in those historic venues like Orpheum,  That's where I saw Cats.  

I might get to see my girls tomorrow according to how the spirit moves.  I have decided to participate virtually with my church for the time being.  I'm high risk and looking at another surgery. Bubba is doing well and just "tired of being there."  I can relate, for sure.  Sally got hot dogs, cheese and steak and potato soup today.  She is antsy to return to normal like her daddy.

It's at times like these that I miss my parents the most.  They have been gone to glory for 5 and 6 years respectively and I was present but trying to process everything while working a full time demanding job.  I appreciated the practitioners that told he straight up what was going on.  These are the real heroes in my book. 

Y'all be happy and healthy.  Keep the faith ^j^

home grown

I don't know about y'all, but this militia plot to overthrow state governments and kidnap a governor has shaken me to the bone.  The fact that this kind of behavior is being fueled by a very deranged sitting POTUS is even scarier.  And also the fact that nobody is being transparent.  We the people have NO clue what's going on and we are the ones who will suffer.  He is playing cat and mouse with people's lives.  

I finally broke down and went to get the ankle xrayed this morning but haven't heard anything yet.  I got a shot of Toradol, steroids and a pneumonia vaccine.  Plus steroids by mouth.  I'll be wound up tight for a few days.  My NP wrapped it with an ACE bandage which is much more comfortable than that brace I was wearing.  After that I fed Sally and ran errands for my client.  I honestly think Sally is enjoying the variety in her menu.  She ate a huge portion of spaghetti yesterday and dove into the chicken noodle soup as soon as I put it out.  She misses her daddy, I can tell.  

Next up on my health regimen is a mammogram and bone density.  Considering my accident prone nature, that's a wise move.  I figure my bones are pretty strong not to have broken during that big fall with the dog and this latest mishap.  Always go on the side of caution.  I am healthcare savvy enough to know when something is or is not necessary.   COVID is raging around here with 41 new cases as of today and 20 deaths.  Yes it is real.  And it's getting worse.  I was told by a friend that there are now about 26 strains of this monster as it keeps mutating.  

I have no good news but a lot of faith that God has his hands on all of us.  Praise be ^j^

help meeee!

Remember that old version of The Fly and that little scream?  Don't you know that's what was going on in Pence's hair last night at the debate!.  He was probably sent as a totem to Kamala winking at her from on top of that stupid head.  That won't shut up, just like his boss.  "Sir, I'm talking."  Classy.

I'm still burning up the roads checking on Bubba and Sally and running interference.  Hey...he covered my ass earlier this year when I had a much worse case of what he's got going on.  He and a whole lot of other people.  Having a tribe is wonderful.

I have noticed myself getting up for the last potty break about sixish and not ever really going back to sleep.  This morning I had I bad dream or two which I can't remember so that's good.  I sleep lightly with a box fan on and hear every little noise which is why I'm gonna have to start turning my phone off.  That screen lighting up and getting texts after I'm in the bed is a real distraction to pure rest.  Maybe I'll just mute it.  You know when you're gonna' get "that call."  

Professionals who understand the circle of life and death come in all genres.  Doctors, lawyers, funeral directors.  They deal with this on a daily basis and it takes a lot out you emotionally.  Emergency response folks.  The law.  My favorite therapy is to visit with Stella at Curry's.  She is big and beautiful and loves head rubs and that makes me happy.  What an innovative way to work through the grief process.  Our friend is a big dog in UTK's vet clinic and they are all about that stuff.  Furbabies should be companions and friends and treated accordingly.  I would smooth kill a mofo who hurt mine.  Oscar is a rescue who was abused by former neighbors.  He kept coming to my house to get away from all that drama.  After I called the Humane Society about the abuse, he was mine.  He's not so skittish about touching now but don't make any sudden moves while he's snoozing.  That is sure to get you bit.  

I hear another tractor so I guess it ain't over 'til it's over.  Y'all be blessed and kind and please, meet people where they are ^j^

fast and furious

We are in trouble kids.  Our deranged COVID riddled POTUS has put a complete halt on stimulus talks until after the election promising everybody a check in return for a vote.  Now even if I were Republican, I would call that a very stupid move.  Why should anyone believe what he says at this point?  He continually lies and glosses over the crisis that we are in.  He does not care about YOU or me.  Only himself and remaining in a dictatorial role.  As a country we have lost all respect and community globally because of his stupidity and the sheep in the Senate just keep on backing him.  Heck, I live neck deep in a red state and see the flags flying everywhere.  I got behind some old dude wearing a MAGA hat going 40 mph on a 55 two lane today and was praying for him to pull over and get out of my way.  He finally turned into a house with the Trump shit everywhere.  

Yaya gave me two nice chunks of salmon today and told me how to cook it which will be on the menu today or tomorrow.  I fed Sally leftover veggie beef soup today and she dove right in.  I imagine in her sickly state she needs something easy to swallow so her diet will change accordingly.  I joined my cousins with the Gigmobile down at the Democratic headquarters today and they drew interest, of course.  People are steady marching up in there to get Biden signs and soon we will have two billboards thanks to generous donations.  Tonight is the night for Pence and Harris to have at it and he balked at using a plexiglas shield in front of him.  This shit is real dude.  Deal with it.

I miss my girls.  Lauren has a fractured foot again but thank goodness her phone was an easy fix.  She just needed a new charger.  Meanwhile, nobody knows what is what because of this terrifying virus and it's effects on our economy with no help forthcoming.  I reckon all we can do is pray.  I'm still bruised up and hurting from the ankle sprain.  

Don't stop believing ^j^

feeding sally

She is such a sweet girl, my brother's dog.  I went to feed her hot dogs and cheese this morning and will do so tomorrow.  My buddy Wade has a bag of soup for her that I made in the crockpot.  She's been sickly for awhile.  When I arrived and unlocked the gate, she ambled on out of her house and got a head rub.  She won't eat when you are there.  Doesn't drink much.  Her daddy is away at the hospital so she is kind of confused.  And sick.

I am listening to farm crew finishing up the corn.  It's way past time for that to be over and the wheat planted.  I love wheat and beans.  They are absolutely beautiful!  Beans are turning orange and yellow soon to be harvested.  And my foot hurts like a mofo.  

No comment on the state of our union.  It is what it is.  Tomorrow the Gigmobile will be visiting the Dyer County Democratic HQ on Mill Street at the old library.  That should be interesting!  Gig is the invention of my Lake county Democratic cousins and I got lots of free swag when they first opened two years ago.  It takes a village.  

I was craving thin crust pizza but may settle on microwaved sweet corn for a light dinner.  Lots of butter and salt and pepper.  Or maybe squash and onions.  Who knows.  I can easily be a vegetarian.  Hummus is my friend.

Y'all be safe and nice to each other.  Wear your mask because it ain't over by a long shot.  And remember who you are ^j^

she's back!

I am notorious for losing the muse and the faith at about the same time.  Yesterday was one of those days for me where I was just ready to give up.  Having a pity party, so to speak.  When I get that way I have to remind myself how blessed I am to still be alive.  I have an appointment with my surgeon soon to discuss my reversal and I'm not gonna' lie....I'm scared to death.  The first time around was an emergency so I really wasn't aware of what was going on.  This time around I am keenly aware of the risks of open abdominal surgery and how hard the recovery is.  Is it worth the risk?  I have some hard decisions to make after I talk to the doc.  

All this in the midst of a pandemic.  I was sickened by the sight of Trump making a victory lap outside Walter Reed yesterday.  That is beyond stupid and I honestly can't believe the hospital let him do it.  The White House is already severly infected and he just blows if off like he always has.  I get it.  He wants to appear healthy in front of his supporters.  Not because he cares about the citizens per se, but to feed his own ego.  He is day 4 post hospitalization and not even into the scary part of the disease yet.  

My sign was, in fact, not stolen.  I just forgot that it was pointed in a different direction and I couldn't see it in the darkness.  I did, however, hear mulitple repeating gunshots from down around the end of Samaria Bend which scared me enough to call 911.  I was told by dispatch to listen for one more shot, which I heard.  I called them back this morning and was told that the deputy patrolled and found nothing out of the ordinary.  We assume it was someone somewhere doing target practice which is, in fact, legal.  I'm used to gunshots around here because of hunters but I know the locations to expect the shots and this was not one of them.   This, from the stupid old woman who approached a parked car last week on private property and asked him his business.  He said he was a PT and showed me his badge.  On the way to see a client and pulled off to finish charting.  Now this is a common practice for home health folks to chart while on their cars, but it is normally done in a client's driveway.  I calmly explained to him that he should leave and follow common practice.  Not off on somebody's else's property.  I'm fortunate he wasn't some crazy ass with a gun.  Got his plate # and all and told him do not come back.  I should have grabbed my neighbor with the gun before I went.  Or just called the law.  Woulda.Coulda.Shoulda.

I am not fishing for compliments when I say I'm taking a break from here.  Truth be told, it's what keeps me sane.  That and talking on the phone with friends.  It's like living in a bubble for me right now, and you all know the feeling painfully well.  There is chaos everywhere but there is also goodness.  I try to dwell on that to the point of be a Pollyanna sometimes.  I attempt, with my writing, to reach out and be heard by those who want to hear what I have to say.  In a sense, it is a journal of one old country gal struggling to get along as an elder.  And to think, had I not retired early I was would be dealing with that as well.  Little miracles ^j^

god things

Sometimes the Lord almighty knows when you need the spirit most.  Today was one of those days for me.  A dear friend or two reached out and offered help.  I will be off the grid for awhile but ya'll all got my number and whatnot.  My blog has turned into a daily whine fest that doesn't make me happy.  Not to worry.  There's about fifteen years of it.  It was a transitional thing from Poop Happens to what's next!  Pecan Lane has brought a lot of joy to many people.  She is also an older version of me.  

When I see cute people and I have my phone on me I will share.  Same for small business. I noticed a fish monger setting up shop in south Dyersburg.  That should be interesting! Lots of carp and cat.  As for me, I prefer salmon and tilapia.  They are easy to season and bake.  

I'll be back, no doubt.  But right now?  I don't want to spread misery ^j^

 

gone viral

The trickle down of COVID continues to impact us in all areas of life which include the supply chain for retailers and availability of support for products.  For example, I have spent the entire morning trying to reach Microsoft to cancel a subscription.  It should be easy according to their tools but when I tried the cancel subscription option I was told I could not because it was "already paid for."  Okay then.  I've made three different calls to their line seeking support for this issue with the current one lasting 46 minutes on hold.  Dude keeps telling me to visit my Microsoft store but they're all closed.  And besides the closest one is in Nashvegas.  I suppose that all the peeps are even off due to the virus or working from home.  I thought this would be an easily reconciled issue but nooooooooooooooo.  Nothing is easy anymore.

I remember once upon a time suggesting that our church purchase a "phone tree" to keep members updated on important news.  It was a new idea at that time but it happened.  Now you can NEVER talk to anybody in person.  Press 1 for English.  Please be advised that our menu has recently changed.  Yadayada forever and ever amen.  

It's a beautiful day once again.  Despite peaks and valleys I feel blessed.  I have decided to move ahead with my life by making yet another appointment with the surgeon in Memphis.  My friend will take me, she of undying support and friendship.  It will happen this time come hell, highwater, or virus.  He has not laid eyes on me since March and will need to see my scar and tell me what to expect recovery wise.  What I expect is another open incision and 5 day hospital stay barring complications.  Everyone was so kind and loving with the emergency situation even though I don't remember a lot of it.  

I'm walking barefoot around the house in socks attempting to work through the ankle situation.  Ellie ate another remote for the smart TV so ummm.  I usually watch on the laptop anyway because one of the dogs is always in the recliner.  I don't do well with kicking back and being still.  It's just my nature to keep moving.  

My Lake county cousins delivered some tomato basil sauce and garlic to Bubba for transfer to me.  I showed him how to use the abdominal support wrap that she gave him so hopefully that will help his situation.  Meanwhile, I caught a visit with my former sister in law wannabe and her man over at the gas pump.  He's about to retire too.  All of us are at that golden age.  

I saw Mamye at the 'gentral while I was getting dog food and propel so we chatted a bit in the parking lot.  She and Yaya are my daily go to welfare checks.  

Y'all enjoy the nice weather and be nice.  Don't make me smack you with a newspaper!

livin' on a prayer

Welp, I struck out on two job interviews this week for different reasons.  However I am not a quitter and definitely one who believes in God's timing.  The right thing at the right time will appear when I least expect it.  I've done a little bit of everything since I retired and being an errand runner for homebound folks has been my favorite gig.  I know there's got to be tons more out there who can't drive and need an errand girl.  

My Microsoft office yearly subscription had expired so I felt frisky and renewed it which ended up in me being broker than usual.  The way I see it is as an investment in my future to become proficient in all those apps.  I've never even done a spread sheet before.  I know...gah.  It took everything I had just to navigate our LIS and get everything documented. Get this.  At one time a positive UDS was considered an "alert" value which required calling the unit and documenting who was notified.  That went by the wayside before I ever left.  

So who am I now?  My strong points are writing, photography and customer service.  I stopped by the Salvation Army today to drop off plastic bags and got to visit with one of my long time co-workers Sandra.  She was a career loyal like me and when she left they hired FIVE people to do what she was doing by herself.  The more you take on, the more they expect.  It's the corporate way.  

Learning to know my limits has come in fits and starts over the years.  I am at the point now where my boundaries change from day to day but there are certain things I hold close.....loyalty to those who have supported me and loved me unconditionally, humility and a prayerful approach to life.  I am definitely NOT in control.  

I wish the POTUS and FLOTUS well if, in fact, they are infected with COVID.  That's my kindness showing.  He did, in fact, go asking for it by holding rallies and not masking.  And he is in a high risk group from obesity and age.  Our country is in chaos partly because of his failure to act responsibly to a national emergency.  

I just don't understand some people but that's okay.  I'm my own kind of strange that everybody can relate to.  I am enjoying this pleasant weather while it lasts.  Sweater weather as we call it here in Tennessee.  But don't put your shorts up yet because you just never know when it will get comfy enough to wear them.  I don't put my clothes up, per se, anymore because with our climate you need to be able to have something available for every season.  

Early voting begins a week from today.  I will do that while out for my mammogram which, hopefully, Medicare pays for.  I mean, it's preventive right????  I have never understood why preventive care is not free.  Well, actually I do.  The more diseases that go undiagnosed, the more money there is to be made on diagnostics and treatment.  Trust me kids.  I worked there for years.

Anywho, let's all hold hands and sing kumbaya.  And be nice!

when one door closes

Since I'm "almost a nurse" I diligently self treat injuries, especially the ones that hurt a lot.  My friend gave me an ankle brace and I couldn't find my knee brace so I got another one plus loaded up on Naproxen and Ibuprofen.  That cane Mamye got me has been a godsend.  The irony of it is that I had accidentally got connected with a life alert technician the day that I fell and after finding that there's a 50 buck per month charge for their "free" device I declined.  I always have my phone on me anyway.

My first job interview was a learning experience that ended with me not being hired.  Okay then.  I've been making it by the grace of God.  A few minutes ago another potential employer called me and I have an interview tomorrow.  Both of these leads came from my brother.  We shall see.

Of course the internet is all in a flitter about the debate, still.  I'll tell you exactly what Trump reminded me of : My three year old granddaughter in full blown meltdown only not nearly as cute.  Hopefully it will work out where there will be some sort of civil discourse.  I read an opinion piece by one who has moderated all sorts of political debates over the years and he said he has shut mics off in a heartbeat.  This should have been planned for because we all knew it was going to be volatile.  

I went down to the cabin today to check out where the floor guys have started sanding.  That wood is gorgeous, with a different type in each room.  I still get all giddy when I see that fireplace with the original mantel.  It will truly be a showplace that was worth the wait.  

Otherwise, it's Indian summer and tonight is harvest moon.  It doesn't get more fall than that.  We have some chilly nights coming up but I refuse to turn on the heat until my teeth are chattering.  Hey....I can layer.  Y'all hang in there for better or worse.  And keep the faith ^j^