wonder woman

Picture this, if you will.  I am 65 years old and in pretty good shape physically but not really super strong.  My microwave caught on fire yesterday afternoon so I tossed it out in the yard by the cord.  I have also been carrying around the blown out tire from last week in my trunk ( along with cans to recycle ) and there is a huge trailer from a waste company parked at the cabin which has been there during the entire remodel.  So, here I go down to the trailer to get rid of said items before the trailer is removed, which will be soon.  The tire was easy but that damned microwave almost did me in lifting it up and pushing it over the top of that monster.  I was giving myself a pep talk the whole time like "come on janie...come ON!"  After several attempts I managed to get it in there and was quite out of breath.  Ah..the joys of single life.

I was happily tapping on the keyboard early this morning when the power went out unexpectedly.  It was really weird because it took the LED bulbs in the office ceiling about five minutes of dimming then coming back on and then finally going out.  It scared me because I thought it was something in the wiring.  Come to find out there was a widespread power outage of unknown origin in this part of town.  It was back on in thirty minutes.  Thank goodness because it was a mighty cold day with a stiff wind from the northwest.  I will have to keep the water dripping for the next few nights no doubt.  Plus we were treated to a few spits of snow this morning.  

I had a joyful afternoon with my clients and I have to tell you I'm stuck on the Kelly Clarkson show now that I get to watch real TV.  Joy likes it too!  Pearl could care less as long as we cuddle her.  

Y'all ready for December? You better be cuz it's almost here.  Roll with the punches and go with the flow.  Life will never throw so much at you that a tribe can't help you to navigate. ^j^

the dream of advent

I haven't made many church services in person because of you know what and the fear surrounding it.  We have to sit six feet between family units and I was seated with mine not knowing that they would be lighting the first Advent candle.  What a blessing.  When I was going in I saw Ms Polly stepping over to where the baby board held the name of her great grandchild.  There was also a rose in his honor.  

Shortly after that the girls arrived and we had just enough time to eat some mexicans and play a little. A couple of my friends dropped by with gifts to make the season brighter.  Lots of blessings today and I anticipate more.  I talked with my agent at Gene Langley yesterday and they are working with banks to try to get me into a newer car.  I can't tell you how much that would help a girl out.  I've been blessed by Toyota for 36 years and don't plan to change now.  Just downsize.

I pray that you will make time to be still and appreciate what Christmas is all about.  I used to wear myself out shopping for sweaters and shirts that nobody wore.  Now, it's personal.  A couple of the most precious gifts I ever received were a Cabo votive and a plush blanket, both of which I still use.  From my baby brother. 

Reaves has had the best time playing baby Jesus chess with the nativity.  She put all the animals in one pile and arranged the kings around the camel.  And there's mommy jesus and daddy jesus to go along with the babe in the manger.

It is quiet now, oddly so.  Solitude to reflect on miracles ^j^  

the crack store and other adventures

The most pressing item on today's agenda was picking up meds at the pharmacy because I was out of the mega Vitamin D.  I made a few stops before that ( Daylight Donuts had sausage rolls!) and headed toward town to get my pecans cracked.  There were only six pounds in my Lowe's bucket so I waited and visited with the guys while the deed was done.  I also picked up some local honey and snack mix which was a bit hot for me.  Patrick will get that.  Then I visited with Whitney who is creating the Minglewood mural at the pocket park where the building burned downtown.  It is right across from Pelham Myofascial and absolutely gorgeous work.  That makes two commissioned murals in downtown D'burg with the other being on the wall of Tencom/The Mill Workspace by Mary Lee Alford.  I'm a real sucker for community improvement like that.  

I still have turkey left so I see tetrazinni in my future.  Or turkey spaghetti.  I am negotiating with a company on a car and trying to work out terms that I can afford.  The dealership is in Humbolt and they have been very attentive and understanding of my needs.  She called today about two 2018 Corollas with very low mileage.  I told her what I can afford in payments and they will take the trusty old Camry as a down payment.  One brand new tire on that sucker and a fairly new battery.  My biggest problem is that LTD will run out in about two years and that is a huge chunk of my income.  So many details.  

I tried calling BC/BS customer service this morning hoping for somebody to help but ummm....nope.  It was voice mail hell.  I may have to lawyer up on this one.  Time will tell but in the meantime ain't nobody gonna' steal my joy.  

Happy Advent eve kids.  Remember what it's all about ^j^ 

complicated order

Lord have mercy y'all the saga of Poopie and the ACA is never ending.  In a nutshell, the problem was that I was notified that my policy which had a zero premium increased to 1350 as of January 2020.  I should have known that was a bad sign.  Anywho, during the period when I was trying to straighten that out I had the big emergency surgery and almost died.  My friend called the Marketplace immediately and an appeal was filed on my termination.  After six months of wrangling with them, I won the appeal.  HOWEVER, BC/BS terminated me as of Feb 1 before the appeal process was even underway.  They issued a new policy which was terminated when I won the appeal.  I just spoke with five different people at Blue Cross to try and figure out what the hell is going on.  Somehow all the bills are being kicked back to me and I don't know why.  I'm talking several thousand.  I'm "in the system" now and this will require a group effort by the Marketplace and Blue Cross to figure out how to make it right.  I'm so tired of dealing with this I could scream.  Considering that I am of somewhat sound mind and a healthcare professional, I feel really sorry for those who have no advocate to navigate the system.    Once again, I'm giving this one to God.  I have no assets to get so lawyer up if you want.  See you in court.  I've been there before.

Lauren slept a loooong time yesterday and about dusk I noticed her lights were on so I woke her up and damn....the battery was dead.  Luckily she had cables in her car and we were able to boost it off of the trusty old Camry.  We are always one calamity away from a catastrophe but we roll with it.  Strong woman gene, straight from Janice.

My Martha Stewartish cousin put us to shame with her huge spread and exquisite presentation.  She's good like that and never does anything halfway.  Years of catering served her well. I talked with Tommy yesterday and he had a little setback with his condition but luckily has a good doctor who is watching over things.  Seems he had a reaction to Bactrim after about four doses.  If it ain't one thing it's five.  

Y'all avoid those Black Friday crowds at all costs.  I didn't go anywhere except on a beer run to the chicken store.  Not one customer in the place had on a mask except me.  Even with a county mandate.  Geez man.  Get a grip.

So, we begin Advent this Sunday with hearts that are full of joy and grief all mixed together.  I love the season and the anticipation.  As a kid I used to have those calendars with thBee pop out chocolates and sometimes I cheated and moved to the next day!  I treasure the tradition of an advent wreath.  I used to attend Christmas Eve services back in the day and it was pretty magical to walk out of that church at midnight to Christmas morning.  

Bells will be ringing soon so carry extra cash and dump it in the red kettle.  The Salvation Army is dedicated to feeding and caring for those in need not just during the holidays but all year.  Tireless volunteers show up at the crack of dawn to cook breakfast and then start on lunch.  I have a box of food in my kitchen to deliver to our church food pantry.  The struggle is real y'all.

Be blessed and happy kids.  Don't let the pecans hit you in the head ^j^

tryptophan hangover

Well kids, we did it.  Lauren and Bubba and I christened the cabin with a Thanksgiving meal there by the fireplace.  I spent the morning hauling it all down there and then hauled it all back up here on the hill!  Patrick of the great culinary skills smoked our turkey titties on his front porch and delivered them to us.  He got a tour of the place and was impressed.  It feels like home, which it is to all of us.  

Currently Oscar and Lauren are sacked out in my bed.  That is a very warm feeling.  The only thing better would be if Reaves were napping with them.  She is spending the day with Daddy and Mama Kim and her grandpas.

I am thankful for many things today, too numerous to mention but they will come to me in little flashes of gratitude.  I never quite know who my readers are and surely don't say thanks enough for those who allow me to express my thoughts and actually find some humor or inspiration.  Or stupidity....heck all of the above!  You are collectively a joy for me and as Trae Crowder would say "Love ya' like chicken!"

Grace and peace to you and yours ^j^

third time is the charm

I am currently boiling the third batch of eggs for deviling.  The first batch would not peel and the second one did great but I got the filling too runny. So, back to square one.  I'm sure the dogs will enjoy that second batch.  I refuse to do anything half ass so I must be careful with the mayo and sweet pickle juice this time.  

I went to pick up my Snoopy pre-lit tree at Big Lots this morning and it's already plugged up amongst all the mess that is my office.  I'm not even trying to keep things organized because I know I won't be here much longer.  I am prioritizing what I will need which isn't much.  The desk that holds my laptop is something that needs to go away and a new computer chair is on the list.  Other than that, mattress and springs and full size sheets.  I figure I have enough odds and ends up here to furnish the back porch which will be my go to spot.  Tiny little baby steps.  

My friend Lorna and her kids are moving today from Alligator Point FL to Weeki Wachee.  They are probably on the road as I type.  She has been diligent in finding the best place to live and school those grandkids.  I haven't seen her in over a year and miss she and the kids a LOT.  Thank goodness for FB and camera phones.

It is gloomy hear after an overnight storm that blew my garbage can into the middle of the lane.  The sun peeks in and out now and then and is pretty beautiful on all those grey clouds and what colored trees are left.  I have found myself often thinking about healing of relationships.  I can't say that there is a single relationship that I'm not comfortable with personally and I pray that families who have differences will resolve them.  We're all we have folks.  

If there is a friend or family with whom you are estranged, it will be good for your mental health to just meet in the middle and make amends.  Life is short and you never know which day will be someone's last.  Don't live to regret if you don't at least try to find peace.  As a hospice devotee that is one of my favorite things about the philosophy.  It focuses on bringing families and friends together so that a peaceful death is possible.  EK Ross established a hospice for AIDS patients in very close to where my brother lives.  I've always appreciated that connection.  Plus, there's Earl Hamner, dontcha' know.  Good night John Boy.  

Gotta' go fill out a survey for Big Lots so I can win a thousand more bucks.  Heck I would just take it in merch, ya know?  Y'all be happy and safe and blessed ^j^  PS....don't be mean.

survey says

I don't normally do surveys unless the service is exceptionally good or bad.  Mediocrity doesn't get a rating from me.  I made an exception today because I had the nicest quickest trip there in forever.  Plus Wanda urged me to do it so there ya go.  I'm entered in a drawing for a thousand bucks like a million other schmucks!   The DG chain is notorious for working their people to the nub by expecting them to check out lots of customers, watch the door for theft, stock the shelves on truck days and on and on.  They do now have self checkout which is handy for a quick card purchase.  Otherwise, I let them do the math.  They know they have a captive audience because there's one on every corner.  I was behind some lady the other day who bought about a hundred of those fake plastic Christmas flowers at a buck apiece.  To say that was time consuming is an understatement.  I have known many store managers over the years down there at Four Points and you can tell who has it on the ball and who doesn't.  This one seems to be improving.  

I decorated for Christmas at my friend Calvin's house today and the tree was right where I left it in the extra bathtub from last year.  He has a to die for place full of gorgeous antiques so that was a kind of joyful thing.  I hope he remembers me in his will if he kicks first!

The surgeon's office called today and he wants another colonoscopy before the big re-connect.  It's only been three years but I understand the reasoning.  That consult is not until Dec 15th so we are still a long way from the actual surgery.  Looks like it will probably be January.  Meanwhile, I'm picking out what goes with me and will move it slowly down there.  I figure that's the way it's supposed to be to get things ready for my recovery.  In the meantime, I get to keep my dogs!  My only must have purchase is a full mattress and box spring.  

Y'all don't be mean please.  Ever.  There's no reason for it.  People are doing the best they can in these days and times and we are all stressed.  Take a deep breath and just remember that you don't know what kind of life that other person is living.  Always take the high road.  And keep the faith ^j^

til the dogs come home

They usually are around the house or on the lane when I come home but were not present when I got here this afternoon.  They have begun to roam farther because I'm gone more and I leave them out.  Lord only knows where those critters are!  I swear I saw a fox run down the road the other day so maybe he made a return appearance.  I just hope they're not down there "terrorizing" Smoochie.  I will hear about it if they do.  Smoochie is a little fru fru dog who never goes out of the house that I've seen.  She just throws a fit when some other dog runs through her yard.  She's little enough that a hawk could pick her up in a heartbeat. 

Update:  Ellie just showed up WITHOUT her brother Oscar.  That worries me because he hasn't been well lately.  Ooops! There he is scratching on the door.  Both of them are now sacked out.

I'm getting excited about our first Thanksgiving in the new and improved cabin.  Stove and refrigerator will be there so that will help.  I see this as a work in progress where there is no rush to get it done and that is a big relief.  After 32 years in the same place it's time to pick and choose what pieces go.  I googled how to convert a 3/4 bed to full size and have that in the works.  Baby steps.  Once again, it's a blessing to be able to pick and choose and sell off the rest.  

Still no tree or Chinese shoes.  The shoes are being held by customs at JFK for some odd reason.  Five to fifteen days from now for delivery I was told, once they are released.  OmegaWalk is the company I will reserve my review until they arrive.  

Our evangelism team did a thing where volunteers wrote on church supplied cards to let members know that we love them .  I was overzealous and signed up to do twenty so I didn't exactly go by the script.  Mine were short and sweet.  I got one today from Amelia Wilkes and it sort of shored up my faith in our fellowship.  Give and ye shall receive.

I don't know that I have ever spoken from the pulpit but that's on the agenda coming up in a couple of weeks.  It's like pulling teeth, I would imagine, to get people to do that but the cause is near and dear to my heart so I'm down with it.  I am on the periphery of church missions but I do what I can.  

Y'all get that dressing done.  Thanksgiving is on the horizon!  

the bevel

My Uncle Jimbo was a man of many talents.  He taught music, directed field bands and successfully remodeled many houses.  Being artistic like that, he became a crafter of stained glass later in life and taught my cousin Debbie to do the same.  I have a piece hanging in my kitchen window that she made and the center contains beveled pieces from my late uncle.  She later taught ME how to do it but I was never proficient on the scale that she and Jim were.  It is a tedious process with a beautiful outcome involving glass cutting and lots of solder and much joy.  My friend Kerri Burns is a master at this craft also.  It takes patience and imagination.  

I just watched via livestream the service from my home church and was reminded of my baptism as we welcomed four young ladies who have been through the confirmation classes like I did many years ago.  It is quite a moving service as the congregation welcomes those who are being baptized and taking a solemn oath to serve the church.  

I woke up yesterday to a flat tire and drove slowly up to Tucker Tire to get it checked out.  I had hit a piece of wood on Friday and went back to look for it to see if there were nails but it was nowhere in sight.  Dillon showed me where the wood had lodged ABOVE the tire and was stuck.  Plus the sidewall was blown so, there you go.  New tire.  I am thankful that I had the money to pay for it because normally I wouldn't have.  

The cleaning ladies have been at work down at the cabin and it's looking pretty fantastic.  If all goes well, appliances will be delivered this week.  It has been such a joy and a great bonding experience for me and Bubba to see this project progress over the three years since it began.  As I sat by the fireplace enjoying the warmth I was overwhelmed with the spirit of my parents.  They are smiling down from heaven on this whole thing.

This time last  year some friends and I put on a art show at the library which was a big success.  Not many sales, mind you, but lots of patrons who enjoyed browsing.  It was only supposed to run through December but when I had the emergency surgery in January the director kindly allowed me time to clear the place out.  All of the artists picked their pieces up during that time when I was seriously ill.  The name of the exhibit was "It's Art" and my only contribution was a recycled window with that logo on it.  I loved every minute of putting it together.  

Fast forward to late 2020 and COVID is raging like a wildfire.  The library is on reduced hours and that hurts a lot of people who depend on them for computer access, yet they can still be served.  I'm in the middle of not one but two books....Fear by Bob Woodward and Where The Crawdads sing by Delia Owens.  Both books were loaned by friends who "get me."  

I made the dressing yesterday and prepped the asparagus casserole.  It will be a busy and thankful week for all of us, even if remotely.  I pray that you and yours are happy and grateful in spite of never ending tragedy.  Keep the faith ^j^

burn baby burn

In typical Tennessee fashion, I have a fire going in the front yard and the AC on.  I raked the leaves up all around the firepit so that I would not burn the whole place up.  Lotso' limbs out there.  I am ramping up to Move mode because it doesn't look like I'll be having surgery anytime soon.  Thank you COVID!  I was dreading it anyways.  Shit happens when you seek medical treatment.  I talked with my baby brother today and he is in the hospital for a UTI from being cathed during a minor medical procedure earlier in the week.  That makes all three of the Stafford kids in the hospital this year.  Lerd.

I ordered a cheap tree from Big Lots and will pick it up in the next few days.  The presents are all wrapped and ready to go under the tree.  Or somewhere in the vicinity of it.  We have to be careful with Ellie around.  She's liable to pick something up and run with it.  I have so many friends who are struggling right now with loss and grief.  I know my next hit is just around the corner but I don't dwell on it.  I trust God to keep me strong,

When I speak of God...the one true one...He/she is a loving soul who is tolerant of all beliefs even it they are not Christian.  Do not preach to me about being saved and whatnot.  I was baptized by a sprinkle when I was about 13 and went through confirmation. There were classes and everything  What does it mean to be Wesleyan?  Reason. Tradition. Spirit. The word.  

I have all the fixings for Thanksgiving so that's a go.  Bubba will bring a table and a few chairs and we shall feast in the new house.  I can't tell you how many times we made that happen before.  This will be different, and special.

Keep the faith ^j^

go poopie!

Today I learned how to drive a golf cart and it was way fun.  We didn't take Pearl on my virgin trip but she will go next time.  There's a car out there that I'm dying to give a test drive but I know I can't afford it.  I would be happy just to take it for a joyride.  I saw the owner out walking her dogs the other day.  

So how's that holiday cooking going?  We are planning on a gathering of three at the cabin. My super neighbor Patrick is gonna' smoke the turkey and I'll do the rest.  Deviled eggs.  Asparagus and green bean casseroles.  Bob Evans mac'n'cheese.  I am shopping for a small tree to put up after turkey day.  I would prefer prelit and small so I'll be checking out Lowes or the 'gentral.  I have zero help to put up a tree.  Seriously!  I figure if it's small Reaves can help.  Maybe four feet.  

My disgust for Trump grows daily.  He lost.  Be a graceful leader and give your next in line the info he needs to keep our country safe.  That's what a patriot would do.  All this denial and dragging shit out will end one way or another.  Take Rudy with you.  Y'all go to Fiji or something and enjoy your golden years.  Or go to jail.  Your choice.  Democracy is on the line here folks.  Cut the bullshit.

Gotta' get to that cornbread for the dressing.  Peace out ^j^

a day in the life

Today dawned bright and early I guess but I slept 'til 8.  After looking through FB, the news and e-mail I headed to see the dentist over a sore gum.  He explained in dentist terms that it's just a gingival injury but the (broken) tooth bone is solid.  I'm scared to death of getting that necrosis of the jaw from taking Prolia.  I may skip the other meds now and then, but I am faithful with that Calcium and Vitamin D.  

After that I picked up pecans.  They are not plentiful but if you hunt and crawl you can find them.  Me and James Frank were out there together and I gave him a tour of the cabin.  His bag had a hole in it so he just dumped his in my Lowe's bucket.  I know that's optimistic to have a bucket that big but what the hell.  A girl's gotta' dream.  Another present came in the mail for LP.  Life is good.  They visited last night and I was too excited for her to see the giant stuffed Peppa Pig sooooo...I told her Santa left it early.  OMG...you should have seen her hug that baby.  And then she forgot and left it here!  

We had a joyful time at Headlines with all that crew.  The ambience there is absolutely amazing and the level of customer service is superb.  When I was recovering from the "biggie" surgery they actually picked me up from the nursing home to get a good head washing.  That saved my sanity!

I just read an opinion story about Biden's trying to play nice and move forward.  He specifically stated early in his campaign that there would be no pardon for the bunch.  It is in the hands of the court unless Trump pardons his whole family before he leaves which he cannot do.  I can't WAIT to see how all this plays out.  I agree with Biden that we need to move on and not create further division.  But step one is to get him out of control.

That's my story and I'm sticking to it ^j^

chinese shoes

I ordered LP some kicks from a company called OmegaWalk not realizing that they would be shipped from China.  I will let you know how that works out.  Mine came from Brooks today three days post order and I can't wait to get my feet into them.  The seriously cute mailman delivered two more packages today and I picked up some great gifts from my salsa sister.  She is a wizard with the jewelry design.  

When I got home from town the dawgs were halfway to the by-pass and I got them to hop in for the ride down to see the cabin.  Today is the last construction day and Billy and I just gazed at the whole thing and marveled that it ever came to be.  Three years in the making, mind you.  Somebody pinch me.  I have to give props to everybody who had a part in all this, especially Bubba and Harvey.  They made a commitment to preserve our homeplace and did it up right.  

More heartache...day by day.  It is only through tribal living that we are able to endure the hardships and hold space for peace and prosperity.  People are good and will be there if you reach out.  Peace and love ^j^

home is where the heart is

I've had a very busy day and this old body feels it.  After an eye appointment this morning I worked with two clients all the while picking up things that I had ordered.  We went for a Joy ride and I put the perishables up and gave her a mini tour of the farm.  She was in awe of the spectacular green of the wheat.  I am being forced to get my shit together while juggling multiple balls and that's not a bad thing.  Just not what I'm used to!  

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I have noticed that my lack of ergonomic computing is taking a toll on my back.  This will be my focus during the transition.  I visited today and the guys had the back porch finished.  It looks soooooo nice.  I'm already arranging my spot back there in my mind.  The next challenge is to figure out the pet situation.  I'm figuring if I network I can find some help.  I certainly don't want my dogs being labeled terrorists *snort*

I had forgotten how much fun is it to get packages delivered because it's...umm been awhile except for ostomy supplies.  They are rolling in now slowly ( thanks COVID ) but I am not in a hurry a'tall.  If the stuff don't show up, I'll get my bank on the bastards.  

Tomorrow looks easy with just a couple of visits in the morning and plenty of time to sort out the disaster that is my house.  I got it all unpacked and put up.  That's good enough for me today.

Peace be with you ^j^

antiseptic wipes

Come on people.  I know you're wiping down every doorknob and whatnot but I have a colostomy and a bag that needs tending to until it gets reversed. If anybody has a hookup, let me know.  I'm smooth out of moves and using babywipes to finish the job.  It ain't the same.

Me and Joy spent a few hours together and did our thing today including a bundled up view of paradise from the deck with Pearl.  The turtles were out sunning.  I woke up at six this morning in time to see the frost and the sunrise.  I imagine the kudzu took a hit if you know what I mean.  I went down to the cabin to scope out the pecan situation and stuffed a bunch of nuts into my hoodie.  Now I have two different sizes.  Do not touch my nuts.  I will call the law in a heartbeat.  The cabin looks good and is almost finished.  I'm still waiting to see what's up with surgery but there are other things to attend to in the meanwhile.  I cannot keep Ellie because she will get run over down there.  Lily is gone to kitty heaven.  And then there's Oscar.  So many things to consider!

I found an unexpected blessing yesterday while looking through papers.  To say that I was grateful is an understatement.  Me and Lauren tried PayPal today and evidently it is really complicated.  I think it's one of those deals where they charge you less than WU for a transfer but all your things have to be synched.  That didn't happen.  Neither did my expected deliveries for Christmas.  Shame on you WalMart and JCP.  

Anywho, at least we have the prospect of a peaceful transition of power since the fat lady sang.  All I want is for somebody sane to be in charge and have a plan for us little people.  Y'all be merry and bright.  But first of all, thankful ^j^

step number five

It's all about being ready to make amends.  You say i'm sorry to the people you have hurt and ask for forgiveness.  If there is one person that I needed to make that amend with it was my daughter.  I never failed her, not to this day.  But I refused to enable her at the end.  From that grew a child names Reaves being raised by a strong mother.  I pushed her to play sports as a kid which was a train wreck.  I gave her a lot of freedom to make friends and mistakes.   I was sort of the buffer , so to speak, between she and the real world.  And I lied to her about how easy it can be if you just play nice.  That didn't serve either one of us well.

I am proud of who Lauren has become.  She is a kickass mama and doing her best to do the next right thing. I should probably visit Mama's grave and make amends for being so impatient with her at the end.  She taught me so much about life like cooking and journalism and common sense.  Daddy schooled me on the joy of nature and the seasons in his farmerly way.  

Other than that, I'm cool with it.  In every thing I've ever been a part of, I tried to do the next right thing within my boundaries.  I have regrets of course, but I don't dwell on them.  Looking forward while living in the moment is my game.  

And so, we all wait and watch as COVID rages and Trump refuses to believe that he lost...big.  Dyer county has become a real hot spot for the virus and the reason is crystal clear.  In spite of a county mandate on masking made by a mayor who has HAD it, people run around with faces uncovered.  It takes all I have not to preach but then it wouldn't do any good.  They don't believe it's real until it hits home.  I am a scientist and I know how nasty viruses can be.  I wear a mask to protect both me and you.  Sure, it's a hassle.  But it keeps us safer.  

I am considering not having a Christmas tree this year.  It's nobody but me and Lauren and Reaves have their own.  I will decorate the house with my favorite pieces and perhaps hang the best of the ornaments on a cord or something.  You know....get creative.  Life would  not be complete without ME wall calendars for me and Lauren and those are in the shipping process.  Along with the play doh dentist set that Reaves loves to watch on their channel.  She is wearing her big girl panties now so I'll rustle up a pack or two of those.  Heck, she doesn't care what she gets and neither do I.  

Y'all look out for each other and make a new friend every day.  Life is short and meant to be lived loudly.  Carry on with faith and good intentions.  And do the next right thing ^j^

be a banger

Thanks to ummm...Tammy Howard I believe, I was introduced to a whole new world with these rappers turned music critics.  They are a recent phenom and their reactions to all the songs that I know and love are hilarious.  They act like they've never heard the song before and react with interruptions for humorous comment. That plus The Queen's Gambit have helped me to crawl out of the depths of despair once again.  

So, the election is officially over so there's no concession or transfer of power as of yet.  That does nothing but hurt our country.  Any Republican worth his or her salt would see that but very few have come forward.  I like Bernie's idea of a 2K stimulus and Medicare for all.  You could still choose to keep your employer sponsored insurance if you like but it's usually higher than 143 a month.  When I left work I was paying about 200 per month for an employer plan that left me with a lot of co-pays and deductibles.  And I was a healthcare veteran.  They will use you and toss you aside.  

I enjoyed my work for many years as a blood banker and laboratory generalist.  I used all the skills I obtained in college plus a few more that I learned along the way.  I'm not really sure how I was drawn to transfusion medicine except for the problem solving aspect of it.  Not only do you have to maintain adequate inventory but you gotta' make sure it's compatible without a doubt.  More than one of my co-workers was shaken when we went to IS crossmatches with a negative screen.  As for me, I was relieved.  It was double the work with no added benefits.  

Reaves is here for a brief visit and glued to the TV as usual.  We did dance and sing to the opening of Haunted House.  She is busy putting St Jude stickers all over the little statue of Gaga.  It's a ritual you know.  Thanksgiving is two weeks away and we plan on having a small family gathering at the cabin if all goes well.  There is no furniture so umm...we will figure that out.  

Peace and love to you and yours.  Keep the faith ^j^

leave that light on

I went for years without a front or back porch light.  Prolly because I wasn't tall enough to change the bulbs without climbing a ladder.  The same is true for my indoor ceiling lights.  It is quite dark up in here, especially during the winter.  I have an eye appointment next week to see what's up with my vision.  Wearing the max of dollar store specs ain't working anymore.  Especially not for driving.  I got estimates today on what the necessary repairs are on the trusty old Camry and it's not in the budget right now.  Maybe I'll just scrap her and put that as a down payment on something more reliable.  Tires are good.  I'll sell them and carry on.  Battery is too.  She's just banged up and wore out if you know what I mean.  If anybody has a grandma gently used vehicle, gimme a shout

Reaves and I had a ball yesterday playing hide and seek and watching Peppa.  My friends came by to say congrats on the Biden win and it was good to see them.  I also thought that was mighty sweet seeing as how they are Trumpsters.  I really don't know how all of this will turn out but I choose to stay positive.  It's not about the win.  It's about our future ^j^

air force brat

My daddy was in the Air Force during the Korean conflict and, in fact, had to put a hold on his agriculture education at UTM to serve his country. He was a supply man stationed at one time in the Azore Islands.  He never saw combat or even made officer, but he was proud as hell that he did what he thought was right for his country.  Of course that was before Vietnam and the draft.  Don't get me started on that.  I especially respect those soldiers because they had no choice.  

This morning was a busy one.  I visited with my dear friend for a while and Lord only knows when I'll see her again.  With all the parents gone for she and hub, the visits will be still often to wrap up things.  When I got home from a Kroger pickup, the girls were here and happy to see me.  Reaves and I played while Lauren went to the 'gentral and now they've headed over to see Heather and her family for a bit.  I'm finishing up laundry and chilling until they get back.  

I have this to say about masking.  I know a lot of people who have gotten sick because they were exposed to folks who all think it's a joke and an infringement on their rights.  To you I say this:  You are selfish and don't care about humanity.  Period.  I remember when I was in the hospital post-op and one day the hospitalist showed up in a mask.  This was pre-COVID and I asked him about it.  He told me he was sick with a cold and didn't want to give it to the patients and staff.  "How thoughtful and safe" I said to myself.  

Life is so short and before you know it things change and folks move on and you adapt.  Not that you ever really get OVER it, but ya' know that is the one constant in life.  A big circle of life and death.  Do not tell me that you are pro-life if you are not committed to helping feed, clothe and care for unplanned children, especially the immigrant ones who have been separated from their parents.  

I feel at peace with the world for the first time in a long time.  Whatever is to come is out of my control and in the hands of the Big Guy.  I keep turning it over time after time and I'm pretty quick  to give it back to God if I feel like I'm the one with all the answers.  I sleep better that way, ya' know?

Keep the faith and grab those moments of spontaneous joy when they come around.  I enjoy playing with Reaves just to experience the joy of childhood unscarred.  

Namaste~

monkey business

Of course, we knew it would be this way.  Trump is living in denial and endangering our country and its' security without a care for us.  I don't remember the Clinton Bush transition but by all accounts Dubya was "unprepared" which was a contributing factor to 9/11.  Don't you know all those terrorists are just waiting and watching to see what weaknesses we have?  And all because this administration continues to ignore the truth and be sore losers.  

Meanwhile, we all continue to face our day to day challenges like unemployment, COVID and all the rest that goes along with being the little people.  How to feed your kids.  Gas money to get to work IF you have a job.  I started watching The Queen's Gambit today and it gave me real inspiration about beating the odds and earning respect.  Beth is my new hero!

Tomorrow is Veteran's Day and I've been too busy doing things to take care of myself to even search for a picture of my Air Force dad.  I will honor him for sure.  I mused in the quiet today about our world, mine specifically and how it has changed this year.  Prior to January, I was a reasonably healthy active golden years kind of gal.  2020 has not been kind to any of us.  I counted the  years until 80 and there's only fifteen more if I make it.  My parents were both in early to mid 80s when they died.  Reaves will only be 18.  That's why we are making memories now.  

Y'all please help me keep the faith ^j^ 

walk humbly

I am excited in a lot of big ways for this country.  We needed a change and some leadership to promote peace.  I think we have found it.  I have one troll who keeps insisting on showing up to dis everything about the win so she shall be " unfollowed" and banned from commenting.  I've had 'em before and it's an easy fix. I enjoy intelligent conversations about politics but not the bashing and trashing.  That's the way I roll.  I read and watch what you post and say ooh and ahh over the babies and strange things.  I never go looking for a fight.  Ever.  

The girls are on the way and the pizza is ready with brownies in the oven.  Maybe Reaves will help me wash all the dishes.  I've been kind of busy this week so they are piling up.  Actually I need new(er) cookware to enhance my current culinary adventures.  I wish I had all that stuff from Mama's. It was old but it was the best...T-Fal and all that.  One of the many things that I have to re-learn is how to use an electric stove.  I've had gas for 30 plus years.  

Y'all keep the faith and be kind.  You never know when a stranger will become your BFF or need some help.  Have healthy boundaries when it comes to giving yourself away.  And always....do the next right thing ^j^

and god made a farmer

I went to a funeral today for a man who has been a part of my life forever.  His crew has farmed this land for many many years and I got to see he and wife a few weeks ago at the end of 'mater picking season.  They were both well at the time but both got COVID and died a week apart.  This has put a huge strain on their son who is continuing his father's legacy.  Sort of like my brother has here on the farm.  We rode together and I signed us both in.  It was a large crowd for a graveside service and quite warm for November.  It was there that I found out that the election has been decided. I tried to restrain my joy and be in the moment honoring the Pritchett family.  My friends and neighbors were all there and I didn't recognize a lot of them because of the masks.  I do believe I hear the combines running in the distance as he would want.  Finish those beans while the weather is good.

I'm hungry but don't know what I want.  I had a late breakfast and a snack for lunch.  DoorDash is a rip off so I reckon I'll rustle something up from what I got.  Save that $$ to eat Mexicans with the girls tomorrow.  Or not.  I want Reaves to help me plant tulips at "gaga new house."  And get a picture of she and Lauren sitting in the middle of golden leaves like back in the day.  

Keep the faith and hold 'em close ^j^

whatever will be will be

I was at a house with real TV today so I got a chance to watch hours of CNN on this historic day.  This has been a long week folks.  Watching those last ballots being counted is like pulling teeth but it has to be that way win, lose or draw.  What disappoints me, though doesn't surprise, is that the GOP has failed to rein in their boy Trump on his dismissal of our universal right to vote.  I learned today what a provisional ballot is.  And I also learned that all of those votes cast outside the polls matter in an election this close.  Tennessee was predictably red so results were reported early.  Ditto for all but five states which we traditionally swing.  Alabama has surprised me the most and I think we can thank Stacey Abrams for that.  Trae Crowder was more excited than I have EVER seen him over the Alabama thing.  Of course UT football fans despise AL! All I know is that  voter enthusiasm has turned this country around and we should not ever let them down.  Not the least of these or anybody who wants to use the right that our forefathers fought and died for.  Lock him up.  I will not gloat, I will be thankful for a wakeup call that we all needed.  "They say" that gas will go to 4 bucks a gallon and your 401K will disappear."  Hey, it's happened before.  And it ain't the POTUS who makes that decision.  

Be blessed y'all ^j^

gloria and poopie

That's the name of the book, you know.  As a child of the sixties and seventies, I grew up with Gloria as a mentor.  Dude?  Just because I'm female?  Don't go there.  She fought for women's rights over the years remaining a constant voice for those of us who didn't buy into the "nice girl" scenario of the fifties.  You know, the deviled eggs and bridge club days.  Pressed linens and fine china.  

That is how I grew up.  My mother's family was well respected and rich back in the day.  My father was a share cropper's son who didn't have a pot to piss in.  His whole story of how "I became a farmer" is fascinating.  Farming tends to be something generational to me having lived in the same little enclave for almost 60 years.  I know the history and the lay of the land.  It's home.  

I planted tulips in my raised bed and have some to put in the dirt at the cabin right where those little mini buttercups and iris are.  Gotta' keep the faith flowing.  As for now, it's pecan season.  Don't come to visit unless you are invited.  We will smooth call the law if we don't know your vehicle.

Peace be still ^j^

road tripping

Well, I did the thing today and traveled to Memphis for a face to face with my surgeon.  He was as nice as I remembered him to be and answered all my questions plus some.  He will be requesting a  report from my last colonoscopy which was I don't know when but I know where it was and who did it.  If it's been too long, I have to do another one prior to scheduling the surgery and he explained why.  The entire staff was friendly and very efficient and aware of what a long haul it was for me to get there.  

My friend Patty took me and we listened all day to election results and swapped hospital stories.  Between the two of us we managed to navigate our way in and out of Memphis to the clinic.  It was a beautiful fall day with perfect weather.  When we got to around Covington my neighbor called and said there was a "strange" car parked in back behind mine.  Only I wasn't there, so we got the law involved to investigate.  By the time they got to the house, the car was gone.  We are keenly aware of activity on the lane that includes what is usual and what is not.  Bev knew she didn't recognize the car and dude had driven down to her house first and turned around.  Still don't know who it was and it was probably somebody who just "dropped by."  I don't do drop by very well.  She knows the cars that are usually around and nobody EVER parks in the back except for Mamye.  Patty waited outside until I had scoped out the house with my trusty Navy Seal knife.  No signs of theft or hatchet man.

I won't go into the election except to say that I am dismayed but not at all surprised.  I knew Trump wouldn't give up easy but what he's suggesting about cutting off the vote count before all of them are tallied is absurd.  Even the Republicans are dissing him for that.  

Y'all play nice and keep the faith.  Maybe we'll know who is President by Christmas.  

spontaneous

I was out early running a few errands in preparation for a client run around noon.  Evidently the text I was sent got lost in cyberspace and I found out that I was needed in paradise.  We had a joyful time and watched two full movies which was a treat for me.  The first was Julie and Julia and though I've seen it before, I was delighted again.  Next was Ophelia which was pretty damn dark in a Shakespeare kind of way.  I had to google it to get the back story.  It's been a long time since I read that book in high school.  Hell, maybe I didn't read it.  I've slept since then.  

While I was at the 'gentral I cruised by my polling place to see what the activity level was.  There were several vehicles around the Fowlkes Fire Department in the parking lot.  I took that as a good sign of voter turnout.  I'm primed and ready for whatever comes.  Without foreign interference and with swift resolutions of the lawsuits that are sure to be coming, I'd say it's a big win for the Dems even if Trump finagles his way to POTUS.  We should flip several seats in the house AND senate and that's nothing to sneeze at.  Except in November in Tennessee.

Y'all don't call it until it's over and keep fighting the good fight.  Not the bad ones with guns and redneck trucks.  I have to wonder what's up in the months ahead.  God bless us all ^j^

on being pro-active

If you are like me, you took good health for granted when you were younger.  I did a lot of good things for myself like aerobics but I also did a lot of things that were detrimental to my health as I have aged.  Back in the day I walked 2.5 miles.  Now it wears me out to walk to the mail box.  I got off of sodas of all kinds several years ago and drink Propel.  I am now focused on eating plant based and gluten free.  

I visited my people at the Baptist Cancer clinic today to see about osteoporosis treatment.  That will require two injections a year of whatever drug my insurance covers.  First one is next week.  I don't want to end up like Mama with a hip fracture.  Speaking of Baptist, my appointment with the surgeon is on Wednesday in Memphis.  I'm praying there will be no election related road rage on that trip. I'm just ready for the whole thing to be over.  The POTUS who is sure he's gonna' win is having a non-scalable fence installed just in case.  Don't worry dude...democrats ain't gonna' climb that fence.  You are dead meat per the voters.  Anybody with an ounce of dignity would take it like a man and move on.  Happens all the time.  Like every four years.

Lauren asked me if it was too early to put up the Christmas tree and we laughed.  I said "honey, whatever makes you happy...go for it!"  She then decided that she was loving fall too much and will wait.  It was Mama's favorite season.

Y'all be blessed and keep the faith.  Let's all hold hands, virtually of course, and pray for better days ^j^

hymn of promise

I watched the All Saint's Day service on my phone this morning and was mesmerized by the reading of all those names and candles lit one by one as the list was read solemnly and respectfully.  There were single bell tolls in the background as each name was read.  It is a very moving service for those who have lost someone dear.  I remember taking Mama to Daddy's and then KK showing up to sit with me for  Mom's.  I also distinctly remember sitting with Donna Locke on the one for her Mama.  The look on her face as she peered toward heaven through the stained glass was enough to make me believe in the mansions up there.  I choose to believe that my parents are saints and are smiling down on the way my life is moving.  Cabin.  Beautiful three year old grandchild with the family name.  

I've been avoiding politics of late because, um...you know.  I passed a real live Trump rednecknation mobile in town today with flags flying proudly.  You say you want a revolution?  Hide and watch kids.  Two days.  Win or lose, at least we will know what we're dealing with.  This year has sucked on many levels and I fear that we are doomed unless somebody stops the madness that is hate and retribution.  Jesus don't like that at all.  As for me, I just turn the other cheek and play nice.  

In other news, I still have about 20 something percent in the propane tank so I'm steadily paying it off and watching the needle. The tank has sunk down into the ground to where I can't really see the numbers.  Mayberry and he both got paid a portion of this month's bounty.  Gotta' pay it back to those who floated you.  

Be blessed and happy wherever you are or whatever is going on.  There is a plan and it's out of our hands.  Go with the flow and show gratitude ^j^