I didn't see him on the day he turned 84 in the nursing home. He never came back home and Mom had to move to assisted living. Daddy died on August 4th, she moved in September and the rest is history. I will never begin to forget the anguish on her face when we came to pick her up for the trip. She had been up all night, blind as a bat trying to pack. I should have stayed with her that night.
It's odd the little things that I remember and slowing down the pace has allowed me to do just that. We always hear about you life flashing before your eyes as you die, but I think the end of life is filled with opportunities to honor the past while enjoying the present.
The bill is still being kicked around in true Congressional fashion. From what I hear the House is not happy with what the senators did.. Except for the Dems, there are few who are against the bill on principle. Most of the GOP memebers are doing what they can for constituents but the primary is a very real thought in their heads. I sent my senator an email with an opinion and got an almost instant robo reply. I'm sure Marsha personally read my passionate plea to save Tennessee healthcare. We are one of several states that refused Medicaid expansion back in the day so there you go. The bill is sure to wreak havoc on care providers as well as patients. I am in favor of a work requirement for those who are able. That is not where the waste and fraud is. Look deeper into the entire healthcare system and realize that it's all about the money. Most of the fraud is perpetuated by greedy insurance companies. Sad, but true.
Call me crazy but I can already see changes in the shadows of the pecan trees. I remember staying with Ms Reba last summer and sitting on her porch to smoke wondering when in the HELL those evening cicadas would go away. The answer was September!
New routines are being established and decicions made for the "five year plan." If I am still alive, my funeral will be paid for by then...lol. We have had just enough rain here so far and the crops look amazing. And I am already counting down the days until the grass dries up and the pink ladies poke their heads out.
Life is so complicated for all of us. We struggle with relationships both professionally and personally, all the while wondering why we aren't happy. I have learned that it is normal to feel discouraged but when you do, go toward the light and think of what it is that you are grateful for. Many days my list is many small things that I notice in nature. That is what's cool about living in the country. I mean besides living at the Field of Dreams ^j*
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