I am emotionally raw right now and can't blame it on just one thing. I am guilty of stuffing my emotions until they come out all sideways like a crying, whimpering SCREAMING fit like my Mama used to do. Losing my vision has been the worst. Slowly but surely I am settling into the decade during which they became dependent on us. They sat here for five years with no way to go excpt family and friends. Ms Faye was here every week day and made sure they had a good lunch. I am beginnng to be like Mom and lay up in the bed until mid-morning. That used to make Daddy soooo mad. During those last years, he slept on a futon in the den so he wouldn't have to come downstairs to pee. The rest is history.
I know who Charlie Kirk was am familiar with his views though I have never followed him because uh, well. You know what a radical leftist lunatic I am. Yet his death and the political fallout from that has given Trump the golden key to be Big Ike. Every single podcaster that I listened to yesterday said that they felt the same way. A horrible way for two families to let go and a prime example, along with the recent schol shootings that there is not enough oversight. Meanwhile, the government will shut down soon if everybody up there doesn't get their hads outta' their butts.
My faith tells me to let go and let God. I am a stubborn soul for sure, but not stupid. The Lord has gifted me with a tough spirit and tenderness to go with it.
I miss the days when I got to see her often. I am her only grandmother and we have lots of memories in the shsort 8 years since she was born. She is a sassy mix of all of us.
I continue to follow in faith ^j^
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